cowbellz's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- who the hell ARE you?? why do some people have this weird power over you? i may be giving away girl secrets here, but there are some people who for a brief moment have total control of my emotions. how is this possible? they are MY emotions, don't I have control over them? isn't that how it is supposed to work? example. there is this boy. he works at a popular music store on lamar. you know the one. we had been hanging out and i was excited about the whole thing. two days after a great phone conversation i run into him at a late night party and he kind of blows me off. we haven't spoken since. this was about two months ago. i've been fine. a little annoyed, but fine. then this saturday, i walk into emos for one last drink on the way to the car. it's 1:45 am. i walk in and see him sitting at the bar facing away from me. i couldn't breathe. my heart started racing and i thought i was going to puke. WHAT IS THAT?! that is SO not fair. i'm a confident girl. i just don't understand how someone i don't even really know could cause that reaction. i hate it. i walked up to the bar and downed a whiskey shot on the spot. only to look up and see him leaving, having never seen me. 3:57 pm - 06 october 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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