cowbellz's Diaryland Diary
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WILD ABANDON.
so, it's true. 2004 has pretty much sucked so far. but that means it can only get better, right?
god, let's hope so.
i know joanna said that sara declared 2004 to be the year of relative stasis, but i hope with every fiber of my being that she is very very wrong.
i've been alternating between being very quiet and reflective and sad and then drunk and self-medicating. trying to achieve a balance. allowing myself to cry and think about my time in boston. and then telling myself to shutup and get out of the house.
it's working okay.
i'm definitely making changes. i know it's cliche, but being confronted with a death makes you reevaluate your own situation. i've got to do SOMETHING. something big. i've go to stop being so afraid.
that's my new mantra. be scared less.
travis wasn't scared of much. he knew that he would never get the good stuff if he didn't take chances. he always had the bumps and bruises to prove it. WILD ABANDON. that's what i want.
be scared less.
4:30 pm - 10 january 2004
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